I am officially on summer break, which means:
- my handwriting will die a slow, painful death (and be resurrected in the fall looking rather grotesque)
- I need a job
- I will get my license
- this is my last summer before my last year of high school.
It’s really strange to think about how I’m going to be a senior. I don’t feel like I’m about to be one. I definitely don’t feel like I’ll be turning 18 in a few months either. Growing up sucks. ಠ_ಠ
I took my SAT May 5 and the scores came back today. I got a 1710, which isn’t bad, but I was hoping for something better. I’m actually pretty disappointed. The practice SAT I took in SAT Prep, which I got an 1850 on, made me get my hopes up too much. I’ll be taking it again June 2, so maybe I’ll get a better score. Whatever. I guess this means I won’t be able to get into Harvard now. Hohoho.
Now this brings up the talk of college. I don’t know where I want to go, what I want to major in, nada. All I know is that I want to go out of state and I want the college to be in an urban setting. I don’t want to be anywhere close to my parents. Texas holds no appeal for me. At all. Going out of state is expensive, so I don’t know. My grades aren’t spectacular (as in straight As) and I’m not worthy of being in the top 10%. I don’t have any achievements to my name. I don’t do many extracurricular activities, nor have I ever done anything substantial for my school or community. In other words, I have done nyet during my time in high school. Woooo.
I also don’t want to feel like I need to do these things for the sake of college applications and transcripts. I want to do these things for my well being and I want to genuinely care about whatever I’d be doing. After seeing my SAT score, I immediately started to think of things I could do to make my college app look good. I ashamed to admit it. I’m glad I woke up a little and realized that I shouldn’t be thinking that way.
So yeah, it’s summer. I exempted all my finals which is why I’m done with school now instead of next Wednesday. I got my laptop battery and ac adapter replaced, at last! After I turned in my school laptop and charger, I ordered them through Amazon and they came in on Sunday. Feels pretty darn good to have a battery that works again and a laptop that doesn’t die after 5 mins when it’s not plugged in.
I remember last summer I told myself that I would have a productive summer (hilarious). It wasn’t, but still somewhat better than my past summer. My job search failed too. Now it’s summer again and I don’t want to make any promises I know I won’t be able to keep. All I’d like to do this summer is sleep, eat, find a job, make money, get my license, watch/re-watch movies and tv shows, and relax.
I also realize that I haven’t blogged in two months lol. Hopefully that will change now that it’s summer. Happy Thursday!