I seem to have an extremely bad habit of making a new post after not posting for a long period of time, promising to post more, then disappearing again and not posting for a long period of time. And I’m back again to continue the cycle. I’ll try to keep the promises to a minimum this time.
So…it’s July. The month is winding down. And my driver license test is next Friday, July 27. I don’t think I’m ready. If I fail, I’ll just blame my family. I’ve had 6 months to practice, but I’ve only started to really practice this past week. My parallel parking is shit. My turns are rather shaky. And my sister is forever paranoid (she’s the one ‘teaching’ me). I honestly don’t even want to get into it. I just want to get my license.
I saw The Dark Knight Rises yesterday with my sister and her friend. Now I really know just how much I hate going to see movies with my sister (and her friends) or anybody, for that matter. I like watching my movies in silence without trivial, unnecessary comments about every scene and the glow of a cell phone blinding my face while I’m trying to watch the movie. I’d really love to see it again — alone. If I get my license next Friday, I want to go see it alone. I doubt my parents would let me though. I have visions of telling my parents ‘sayonara’ with a brief explanation about going to the mall or something and then driving off. But no. I don’t think they’ll ever let me do that. What would be the point of me having a license and a perfectly good car to drive around with if I can’t go anywhere? It’s ridiculous. I’m almost 18, but my parents still refuse to see me as anything other than a ‘baby.’ And at the same time they preach at me about growing up. But no…it’s all out of love. I’m just to0 young to understand it. Yeah.
Family is more annoying than usual. My two brothers are away in other states working hard and whatnot, which is unfortunate for me because they’re the only ones who don’t make me feel like smashing my face into a mirror. I get along better with the males of my family than the females. Just one more year…just one more.
I don’t understand how a person who really has no reason to be so unhappy is so unhappy. For a while, I thought I was doing okay. But then I just realized (again) it was because I was in fantasy more than reality. Reality’s no fun. Not at all.